32519, on 2013-January-11, 13:27, said:
How do I know beyond doubt that God is real and that he exists? Ask anyone who has been baptised in the Spirit of God. It is an unmistakeable life-changing experience. It happened to me on 28 December 1995. I was visiting a family of believers. The father of the house had the practice that at 20h00 every night all members of his family (and any guests present at the time) had to pray together. A bit extreme I thought as a complete novice believer. Each person in turn was expected to pray something, no matter what. I was extremely nervous as this was new to me. It was also unexpected. When it was my turn I managed a few barely audible words. It was then that the Spirit of God fell upon me. The weight of his presence pinned me down in the chair I was sitting on. The warmth of his presence began washing over me. I began crying uncontrollably, a crying from deep within which can only happen when touched by God. Snot began streaming from my nose as I cried and cried. But the weight of Gods presence had rendered me immobile. It was absolutely impossible for me to lift an arm or a hand to wipe away the snot. After about 5 minutes Gods presence lifted and I was able to move again. I had zero understanding of what had just taken place. But the father of the house did as he had seen it happen to many others as well. After cleaning up the snot puddle he began explaining to me about being baptised in the Spirit of God.
The second time this happened was during 1996. A preacher from the USA was in my hometown. I cant remember the guys name but it could have been Virgil Johnson. Neither of us had ever set eyes on the other before. During the service he called me forward and started praying and prophesying over me. I cant remember exactly what was said but it was something along these lines, I can see that you are on fire for God, a sailing ship ready to set out to sea, a violent and tempestuous sea. But God will bring winds and storms across the face of the ship, forcing it back into the safety of the harbour. You are not ready to leave. I never had the faintest idea what this guy was talking about at the time. However, as he began praying and prophesying, the Spirit of God fell upon me again like the first time. This time I was standing in front of a church full of friends and strangers, crying openly at once again unmistakably being touched by God.
The third time happened in one of the home fellowship meetings. Someone was praying over one of the woman who had been molested as a youngster. God was busy cleansing her of all the anger, hatred and hurt of some very painful memories. But this meeting had a difference. There were others in the group who had also suffered some or other form of abuse. When the Spirit of God fell upon the woman being prayed for, he fell on the others in need of healing as well. I was one of the others who was being healed.
You ask me how I know God is real? I know because he showed up more than once!
Prior to this third happening, I had attended a church course dealing with healing. I dont know where he got his numbers from, but the guy presenting the course claimed that 7 out of every 10 woman were molested or raped at some point. In my own country South Africa, statistics reveal that every 7 seconds, a woman or child is being raped or molested somewhere in the country. That is truly shocking. The world population recently passed the 7 billion mark with 51% of the population women. Take the South African statistic and extend that worldwide and the number of woman and children in need of healing is truly staggering. A psychiatrist or a psychologist cannot heal you. The best they can do is give you a crutch to cling to so that you can cope with your ordeal.
The question has been asked a myriad times: If there really is a God, why does he allow these things to happen? In short; I dont know. Fallen man void of the indwelling presence of God is capable of doing some really horrific things. But this I do know. It is necessary for us to be born. We are all to become Gods vessels wherein an invisible God becomes visible. The things that happened to us during the 70+ years before we die will become completely irrelevant.
The same question can be extended to the millions (especially Africans) born into abject poverty and no future of any kind. Millions die of starvation, mostly before they reach age 5.
I don't know whether to feel sorry for whatever events in your life left you so vulnerable to what sounds like an extremely powerful internal event, to be repeated later if I understood you correctly, or whether to congratulate you for finding a way to believe that (it seems) makes you feel better about yourself than you did.
I hope you will not take offence, but I suggest that you probably already know and agree that sometimes people have subjective experiences that are not objectively true. I do NOT mean to equate your experiences with the delusions of people suffering from paranoia or in the grips of a psychosis. I mention these as extreme examples of power and propensity of the human brain/mind to entertain, as 'true', ideas that are false.
I DO mean to suggest that lesser and far more benign situations can arise in which we have experiences that we struggle to frame. The fact that you describe yourself as a 'novice believer' at the time of your first experience, and the fact that you were voluntarily associating with what sounds like a cultish sort of religious family suggests that you were pre-disposed/conditioned by your upbringing to frame an emotionally powerful experience in religious terms.
Put another way: if I were at someone's home, as a guest, and the 'head' of the family said that at 8 pm we ALL HAVE TO PRAY....I'd make my apologies and leave.
We are by nature social animals. We tend to defer to those we sense are in positions of authority, and we tend to believe what those around us believe. Obviously these generalities are just that and different individuals react differently, but collectively it is fairly easy to predict human reactions. This is why newspapers (when they were the dominant media) could cause entire countries to go to war (as two examples: the Crimean War and the Spanish-American war were both brought into reality by the newspapers of the day).
It's why cults are so successful, provided that they can isolate the candidate member amongst established cultists for a short time, and why the Stockholm phenonomen exists.
My guess, and it can only be a guess, is that you were emotionally vulnerable, placed into a situation in which your companions were deeply religious, and you had an emotional event of some kind, and naturally you saw it as 'god'.
But that doesn't make it 'god'. Nor do your efforts to quote biblical passages make those biblical passages true.
To persuade non-believers, you need to be able to do such things as coherently state a definition of god.
And that definition must be such that one can construct experiments to see whether the universe acts in a manner consistent or inconsistent with the existence of that entity.
Telling us that we will find out when the Second Coming happens is just nonsense....until and unless the Second Coming occurs. Until then, it's simply fantasy.
Prayer, for example: most religions include the concept of prayer. Yet the only truly scientific study ever done on the power of prayer revealed that there was zero...absolutely zero....positive effect from prayer. Interestingly this study was endorsed, before the results were known, by a number of religious figures. They ALL chose to repudiate the study rather than to change their beliefs to accord with the evidence. That says a huge amount about the type of people who are religious.
I know nothing will persuade you to consider that you may be mistaken. And maybe nothing should: your feeling obviously makes you happy. It is sad to see someone who seems to be quite articulate go through life blinkered and 'stoned' but that's on me, not on you. So long as you agree that you and your co-religionists have zero right to ask others to abide by your beliefs, then I wish you well.
'one of the great markers of the advance of human kindness is the howls you will hear from the Men of God' Johann Hari